ABC...

ABCD....

D

here with.
in not.
the alphabet D.

then and now

then before
now after
still...

more

jaded.

jaded

am very.
not me.
aint.

ouch.

stress when you are.
don't know what is expected
what should i do?
i got no reply too.
this situation repeat.
a vicious cycle.
the expectation misaligned...
sorry. should have done more.

roll?

a rolling sphere...

cube.

frustration.

i am a human too.

an invisible

nothing seen as i stretch out my hand.

lights out.

lost. 

as usual.

never mind.

just walk.

the light will come back on.

here.

missing.
unfamiliar now.
many things leave me dumbfounded.
doubtful.
questions.
unknown.
still. happy.
trying.
hoping.
still...
undecipher.
good luck.

summer??

motivation.
what motivation?
no one need that
in....
summer!!!

sucks.

motivation.
zero.

extraction.

that ache again.
one gone.
the other one?
angry.
pissed.
fear.

the night.

awaken.
cold.
inscure.
worried.
very worried.
i tried.
but not hard enough?
i will try again then.
head ache now.

the room

the chair
the light
the mask
the little cup
the drilling starts
the sensation
pain.
swallow.

the mirror

as i look upon it.
it casts a reflection.
stop.
and stare.
it's going to be different.

never

lousy.
yes.
trying.
yes.
but.
i should.
stop.
just.
go.

day out

the water and the sun.
splash.
then.
pain.
pain.
pain.

hold.

eh eh.
what?
hold on.
why?
wait la.
eh eh.
what?
sold out.
but it was just there.
no.
sold out.
again????

wednesday.

flip.
rotate.
roll.
splash!
wah!
pain.
woot!

sigh.

patient.
how long can it last?
threshold.
how much can it takes?
necessity.
drive changes.
it a matter of perspectives.
some never know.

i know.

i know when.
i know how.
yes...
i know.

oh

have not written.
for sometime.
forgotten i think.
a lack of inspiration.
with laziness.
sometimes there are things to say
but most times it's best kept.
i don't say much
nor do i reveal much.
that's me.
thanks to many.
and apologies to some.
many things await in the year.
what can they be?
where will i be?
how will i be?
trying...
we will see...

i didn't

late into night.
early it comes.
no.
i didn't.
not at all.
didn't at all.