weekend.

the ache.
the stiffness.
excitement in late night.
melody of music.
stress.
love it.

drown.

drown among busyness.
drown by hope.
source of revival.
diversion of confusion.
just the moment...

mix of disaster and love

what sarah said...

hospital visits suck.
we can do nothing about.
console is all we can do.
people in white always seem busy.
today seem like 3 years ago.
I guess I didn't do enough.
we miss him I guess...
"love is watching someone dies..."?

day...

sitting by...
chilling on...
staring blank...
lying back...
aimless wandering...
missing.
getting.

beginning...

It's time.
darkness to light.
ray of hope upon beaten soul.
shimmers of faith beyond the horizon.
it's time...
revelation.

not far.

as the wave breaks...
the burdens unload.
as water sweeps up the shore,
weariness subside...

to all...

Thanks for the little few that care to visit this blog.
I am sure most of the time you people don't understand what I am writing about.
But that's alright, it's my own shout out and if all understand you would have been called 'xuxian' as well.
Still, ponder over the words that I wrote. Maybe you feel the same at times. Don't ask me what that particular post means that will become meaningless. Meaning are define and comprehend by ourselves.

Thanks once again.
xx.

cycle.

it's revolution.
all start has an end.
up will come down...
heaving that air of relief
when that cycle's complete.

give up.

always wanted to give up.
whatever it is.
somehow never did.
too weak? or too determine?
swallow every single bit.
it goes on i guess......

fatigue

thoughts distracted.
mind confused.
trying hard to no avail.
lost.