hmmm...

for a moment.
i realise it has really started.

nothing.

this and...
that.
everyone wants everything...
sometimes...
nothingness is...
everything.
i want nothing...
just want...

my pod, my shorts and i.

sick.

a time when burdens you have been shouldering suddenly come crashing down.
body overheated.
head throbbing and spinning.
your muscle feel the fatigue.
breath heavy and hard.
our mind wonder into the far end...
thoughts and images from afar surface.
as your eyes close...
we wish for...
wishing...

burnt.

can never resist.
a day out in the sun.
wherever it is.
the rain of sunshine.
soaking.
enjoying.
burnt.

just like this...

the inevitability to feel.
blessing to some.
curse to others.
the harder we try, the worse it may get.
life's about...
being happy. i always said.
how then, i asked.
like this...

am i...

i made lousy decisions.
i always question and doubt.
or am i just unfortunate.
realise that being nice never pay off.
appreciation are the hardest thing to come by.
the dark side beckon...
or am i selfish.
sometimes everything seem meaningless.
i think that's good.

confession.

i have to admit.
tried and played a couple other games...
still i love tennis.
it's the game.
i still stood in awe by those shots.
may not play a marvellous game.
but still...
i know i will never get enough.

the little green ball. xuxian.

hypnotize.

night is beautiful.
well...most days.
some songs just keep singing.
thoughts and memories come and go.
i am only one.
who?

just something i came across.

rain.

rain they say.
sometimes.
hate it.
puddle in the wet court.
roughness in the seas.
lifeless at home.
rain.
how apt.

lousy.

bad day? i ask.
crap.
and so i ask.
give me a sign.
never.
i say.
the tread i went.
fatigue.
wait.
sleep.
lousy.