the gardener waters his plants
daily.
care for his plants
always.
is the pot empty?
or it wont grow?
he tries to be happy still.
he hopes.
but...

control.

i love.
i adore.
i abuse.
freedom.
my discipline.
i control it.

simple.

life is simple.
really.
we think too much.
the freedom.
make it simple.
it's just so.

have you...

wonder?
throw us down.
a toy,
like mess.
walk along still.
ABC....
D....

happy

happy
it's not hard
just be happy
jump
smile
happy
optimistic
that's all.

unknown.

i don't hear anything
nor
sense anything.
i hate emotions.
i only know...

ABC...

ABCD....

D

here with.
in not.
the alphabet D.

then and now

then before
now after
still...

more

jaded.

jaded

am very.
not me.
aint.

ouch.

stress when you are.
don't know what is expected
what should i do?
i got no reply too.
this situation repeat.
a vicious cycle.
the expectation misaligned...
sorry. should have done more.

roll?

a rolling sphere...

cube.

frustration.

i am a human too.

an invisible

nothing seen as i stretch out my hand.

lights out.

lost. 

as usual.

never mind.

just walk.

the light will come back on.

here.

missing.
unfamiliar now.
many things leave me dumbfounded.
doubtful.
questions.
unknown.
still. happy.
trying.
hoping.
still...
undecipher.
good luck.

summer??

motivation.
what motivation?
no one need that
in....
summer!!!

sucks.

motivation.
zero.

extraction.

that ache again.
one gone.
the other one?
angry.
pissed.
fear.

the night.

awaken.
cold.
inscure.
worried.
very worried.
i tried.
but not hard enough?
i will try again then.
head ache now.